Love lifted me

Today is thanksgiving day. Reality is that Everyday I wake up with heavy heart as my son is in the hospital. I let my mind mingle of Gods love toward my son and my family.

I praise God for His mercy, love and grace. My grandfather before he died at 98 years of age… had a prayer that I always remember “Give me grace as you gave it to others!”

 I pray that also, and that my kids and friends’ prayers will be heard for my son. Theo has been in the hospital for over 17 months. He needs God’s great grace and mercy. Imagine being in one room most of your life. Our prayer is to surround him with many angels, may he be comforted with Gods love. We prayed for giving him endurance, comfort, good temper, cheerful heart, wisdom ect. Nurses and volunteers have been telling how they never have seen such a happy, active and attentive boy at the hospital…that gives us praise in our hearts as we Glorify our Father in heaven. He is indeed super attentive to every sound and movement that happens in his room. He loves when his sisters play and make him laugh…his giggles are priceless.

When I was still pregnant with Theo I didn’t know it will be a boy. I saw a few interesting dreams. “There was a big event happening and big stage. One teenage boy comes up and starts giving a speech…I was so amazed how well this boy spoke and with so much wisdom. After the dream I knew it was my son and it gave me butterflies just thinking of it.” I shared this dream with nurse Jane and she told me the next day something that surprised her as well. So as Jane was attending Theo another nurse came into the room and looked at Theo and told Jane how Theo is full of wisdom. Indeed Theo is full of Gods wisdom.

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Before Theo was born, my midwife was bit concerned about my stomach measurements and too much amniotic fluid…other than that my pregnancy has been without any other issues. So on 12 of April 2022, Davis and I, drove to Vernon hospital. I felt some discomfort in my tummy and mentioned to Davis maybe baby will be born soon. During the ultrasound (36 weeks) the doctor didn’t mentioned anything is wrong and asked if I want to know the gender…I thought why not :) After I found out I called Davis to tell him awesome news that we will have baby boy. He was quite excited about the news. That day my birthing pains started so we decided to stay overnight in Vernon at a hotel…the labour pain intensified at night and next day. The next day we went around Vernon and in the evening my dear friend Heather a doula came to assist me during my labour. Labour wasn’t as easy as baby was bumping back and couldn’t engage because of the excessive amniotic fluid. After breaking the amniotic sack the water gashed out like crazy…I though there might be ocean of the floor. Finally at 3 am baby boy was born. Davis had to bring me extra clothes from home as in the morning I was told that I and baby will be airlifted to BC children’s Hospital in Vancouver(BCCH). It was quite unexpected. Nurses were asking what’s your baby boy name…and I asked Davis “make up your mind what’s his name” as we didn’t even set our mind on certain name. After few minutes he replied “Theo” like Theology. I loved this name and said that’s very cute.

When we arrived to BCCH I was admitted to old side of the hospital building and Theo was far at the other side of the hospital in hummingbird pod. I had to ask help to bring me to Theo with wheelchair as I was so weak. When Theo had first surgery(as he couldn’t swallow) I prayed whole time for successful outcome and googled because of interest if there is other meanings to Theo’s name and indeed Theo in Greek means “Gift from God'“ I was so uplifted and thankful. After Theos surgery nurse tells me that his blood type is B positive. I told God thank you for this love note to be positive through this trial. Psalm 34:18 “The Lord is near the broken-hearted; he saves those crushed in spirit.”

As I was still admitted myself at the hospital…one night nurse comes and wakes me up. She tried to tell me to pick up phone as doctor is on the other line. My heart started to beat faster as I picked up phone. Doctor announced that Theos heart stopped for a wile but they were able to get him back to normal. My heart was racing as fast as never before in my life. I put phone back and told nurse please lets pray together as I don’t know what else I should do. We prayed and I lay in bed and cant fall asleep…I told God please give me peace and encouragement…after a wile in back of my mind the sound tells me “he will live…don’t worry” I was again so much uplifted!

Davis drove down with girls after one week of Theos birth. I was super happy to be reunited with my family. We were thankful that Cops for Kids charity fund was covering some of our stay at Easter Seals, Sandman hotel at Richmond and Burnaby. Until their funds run out on us and we were on our own…we had a Delica van and little camper that we parked at the hospital parking lot. As rent is so expensive in Vancouver we were camping most of the summer on the parking lot. Autumn was coming closer and we didn’t know where we will be sleeping as it was getting colder. So last minute Oakridge SDA church offered us bachelor room for rent (for a short period of time)…even though it was small and there wasn’t any kitchen we were still so grateful. At the end of October social worker called and announced that Ronald Macdonald house(RMH) lifted rules for Vax requirement passports and if we want to be signed in, I said definitely please sign us in…we have been waiting for it so long time. 1 November 2022 we moved to RMH.

Psalm 37:10 “Young lions lack food and go hungry, but those who seek the Lord will not lack any good thing.”

I saw in a dream wile we were not yet at RMH that we were in a big building where I was showed one room after another…and one room had piano…I sat at the piano and was so elated how playing piano makes me so happy and satisfied. RMH is indeed such an amazing place where we gathered so many experiences and made so many new friends. Kids are feeling so much like at home…they can just sit at the dining table with RMH staff member girls and have conversation with them. My girls love to mingle and be around people. Girls have different classes at RMH like arts, crafts, music, medical play, reading, writing ect. Sometimes we have field trips to Aquarium, Science word or summer time picking berries. So grateful to the RMH staff to organise such an amazing activities to all families who are going through so much pain and suffering with their children. RMH people are always so helpful, kind and compassionate. May God bless them for their efforts!

I will close this chapter with positive words… there are many amazing police officers, doctors, nurses, firefighters ect. Praying that God will bless their self-sacrificing service and life.